Wow - how much the months change a person, and how things change - I had forgotten about this place for so long, I was amazed I was logged in. And my last drunken post showed a very ugly side to myself, fury isn't the prettiest thing.

Of course when I got back I sat down and talked to Ted's friend, and I gained a friend, even though sadly lost her in part at the same time, we also moved from

The South I think is good for me, in a year I have gained a more rooted grasp on the earth. Have lost all the money I saved. But luck seems to be at my shoulder, lets just hope I don't let it down, I have a real chance A REAL Tangible almost feel it veil-like, flimsy but almost touchable, brushing across my finger tips.

I have just got to work hard, push myself, show my talents - lol I giggle at the stuff thats on here now, its funny I haven't posted anything in an age - but everythings changing so fast - and I promiss to myself, to post something amazing up here soon, lol at least I hope too!

I've got to get better at promisses me thinks, I let myself down all the time, either that or sell myself short.

But soon I hope to be able to exhibit my work! Or at least get an Agent - oooo so exciting - I met one of Englands loveliest and hardworking exhibitors, and she's fantastic! We shall be going on a picnic soon, and I am to make pieces for her perusal.

I'm envisage my work for Annie as a patchwork of fabrics and stichwork to make something a little like klimt crossed with alfons mucher and audrey kawasaki. It thats possible, the theme is folk lore, so lots of nymphs, and sprites, not the pretty butterfly winged sort, mine shall be quite different. I adore anamorphic paintings of sphynx's and pan.

Painting with either Bon Iver playing - or "Moon and Moon" by Bat for Lashes - beautifully ethereal and visual.

"Calling moon and moon, shoot that big bad hand."

I've lost my silver ankh ring - must keep searching for it. Or perhaps its gone to someone who is taking care of it, and need a bit of protection. my thumb feels naked without it.